How times have changed...

Hey Blog,


It's been awhile, I know, I have been pretty busy the past few weeks. I've been really focused on some stuff that have helped me keep distracted. I decided I'd take this time to really flesh out how much things have changed over the past several weeks a little bit. Let me tell you, they've changed quite a bit.

First off, I've started on my mission to lose seventy-five pounds by summer time. So far, I've dropped my weight down from 250 to 235 and it's dropping. So far, I'm about four or so weeks into my mission, and it's going really well. It started out by doing two mile jogs every day with some mixed exercise throughout. But, then it started to become more of a standard thing by doing two mile jogs every night, a four mile jog on Thursday nights. Now, I'm bumping it up to five mile bicycle rides everyday, and a four mile jog every night with a six mile jog on Thursday nights.

I'm eating more healthy, or at least as healthy as I can get with the dormitories menu. I'm sticking to lean meats, and getting fruits and veggies into my diet pretty much at every meal. I'm drinking lots of water, and having some small snacks every three hours or so to keep my body awake and burning.

I'm already noticing changes, and it feels really good. I'm thankful I've got something to distract me and keep me moving forward. I've kind of cut video games out of my life a little bit... which is disappointing, but a much needed break from them. I've been connecting more with friends, and keeping more in touch with the people in my life. It's really nice, as it helps a lot right now.

I suppose in a sense my way of thinking has changed as well this past month or so. I've grown more compassionate about others than ever before. My mode of thinking is more towards others, and I keep putting myself in other people's shoes. I'm reaching out to people, and being more positive to hopefully raise people's spirits. I've also been praying a lot... I mean, a lot. I've been praying for people who are struggling, people who have ailments, and I've been praying a great deal for my Beautiful Person. Every morning, I wake up and say a short prayer, every time I sit and eat a meal, I say a prayer over my food with my friends, and every time before I go out on a jog or bike ride I say a prayer, every night before I go to bed... I pray some more.

I've kind of found a place to go when I pray, a place to store my thoughts and my feelings and ultimately my love for others. I share that, and I give it up. I've found this love for the people around me that is so fulfilling, but to some it seems odd. I've grown a little enlightened I guess, grown a real understanding of what it means to look around myself and really seek to know what makes people think or do the things they do. I've been very forgiving, and very conscious of others. It feels nice, but in some cases, it's daunting.

I feel as though I'm getting stronger everyday, both in my body and my spirit. I'm working hard everyday to continue to grow on that, to continue to be a better person for those around me. But also to help be strong for the future ahead...

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To say I don't still think about my Beautiful Person every moment would be a lie. I still think about her, almost always. But when you spend so much time thinking about someone in your life, you can't just shake them out of it. They grow a residence there, and if you love someone, you undergo tortures for them. In a sense, it's made me stronger. I can still think about this person, and not be broken. It's actually quite a relieving feeling... knowing that they can be there, and it not be tearing me apart.

Although I do wonder if they think of me too, but I'd understand if they didn't. I don't think they think about me like I do for them, but that's fine. I pray for their happiness, always, and when I make wishes, I wish for them. Love is strange like that, and I'm really coming to understand what that really means.

I think the largest realization I've come to, is how happy I am with knowing that I know what it means to truly love someone from the bottom of the heart. To truly pour everything you have and know that it is going to the right place. I experienced something in life that people work toward their entire lives. I experienced what it meant to truly love someone, and that's an experience that I feel is amazing.

I'm happy with that fact, happy with my life as I am living it. I'm blessed with a wonderful family, an amazing family of friends, and I'm on my way to graduating and going out into the world with a new found fervor. I'm a very fortunate person, and I hope I can bring great things to others too. Life is beautiful, people are beautiful.

I've changed a lot Blog, but I'm thankful that it is in a good way. I've started to love myself more, which has not happened a lot in my past, if ever. So that allows me to grow stronger, so should my loved ones call, I can be there for them. I shall grow stronger, so that should the world call... perhaps I can be there for them too. I hope to see the world- No, I hope to change the world into a better place.

So, a few goals of mine that are underlying in my goal to start a company in the next ten years:

* Run some marathons locally.
* Do a triathlon in a foreign country.
* Travel to a foreign country (New Zealand? Japan?)
* Go on a few mission trips to places in need (Africa, South America, South-East Asia).
* Bring a smile to someone's face everyday.
* Love myself, Love those around me, and be Happy.

So, I've got to run to class. I'll see you in a bit Blog!