Walking the Path

Hey Blog,

Before I go on, I'd like to say thank you to one of my commenters, BootyBump420, for the thoughtful comment that inspired me quite a bit. Thank you for your great words, it really does mean a lot.


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So, it's been good these past few weeks, at least pretty good. Although today it was awesome, but that aside... it's been good. I've been getting out a lot more and doing stuff outside. I've been connecting with people that I felt like I've disconnected with, even though I feel I've got plenty more to do, I'm going into this a little bit slow. But it's good to get connected again.

Lately, I've been looking forward to writing songs for my younger sister Lisa. I'm trying to come up with stuff, been mostly looking at some YouTube artists who are really awesome. ClaraC, Paul Dateh, and Sam Ock. They're really talented artists, and have been pretty inspiring this week. I hope I can come up with some stuff for Lisa pretty soon so we can maybe hammer out a demo CD or something.

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So, I've been feeling a lot better lately, at least since Saturday night. I went over to my friend's house, to deliver something to them and help them install it on their computer. Well, my Beautiful Person just so happens to live in the same house... and I was really skeptical about what was going to happen. I tried really hard to make it so that my Beautiful Person wouldn't be there, but as it turns out, my friend's schedule was a little busy and ended up pushing the appointment to pretty late that night. I was okay with it, I was just a little worried. I didn't want to push my presence onto my Beautiful Person, and make her feel like I'm forcing her to see me in some odd way.

Well, it worked out... kind of. It was an odd experience, a heart-wrenching one at that. I was a little more than ten feet away from my Beautiful Person, and couldn't see them, couldn't hear them. It was better that way, but it didn't make it hurt any less to be so close... yet so far away. The job was finished, and I ended up leaving a letter for my Beautiful Person, a letter in which I poured a lot of myself into.

I was surprised how that night actually effected me. I didn't feel as thrown back into a pit as I thought I would... but instead, I felt empowered. I endured what was quite a hard incident. It was really tough on me, but it helped me to realize that I could do this. It helped me to realize how selfish I was being before and how I should have been more understanding of the situation. After giving up the letter... I felt like I had somewhat more closure than I had before.

I feel ready though, to continue on my path, while my Beautiful Person continues on her's. She chose this journey, and I need to focus on mine. A knight needs his castle, and I plan on building on up and being successful with it. I still pray for my Beautiful Person, everyday, at least four times a day. I don't know how she took the letter... but I hope she read it a few times and really absorbed what I had to say.

At any rate, I feel stronger now, I've been laughing and feeling so much better. I'm licking my lips about going to class, and doing my work and thinking about what I can do. I was in a funk, and now I'm in a groove. I know I can do this, and I want to succeed whether my path converges with my Beautiful Person or some other Beautiful Person who might come my way. I must continue to walk the path, help those around me... guide those around me.

I am on a path, a path that compels me to help people I meet. Love them, without conditions, and show them what that really means. Not through words, or text... but through action. I wont give up on people, I want to give them someone they can always look to, to stand by them when they feel alone. I know that God is always there for people, but if they see someone there... someone behind them who is walking the path, maybe they'll do the same for others. I don't expect them to, but I hope it'll help.


I am a very lucky individual, blessed with a beautiful family who loves me and supports me. A beautiful set of friends who I care deeply about, and they do the same for me. I have dreams, goals, and motivation. I am truly blessed.

"But what man is a man who does not seek to make the world a better place?"

and what kind of life is there to live if not to bring good to others?

I hope I can bring good to others. Be it using Video Games in my foreseeable future, or taking mission trips to countries in need. I want to help make the world a better place. That is my path.

"I shall help people, not because I want to, but because they need it."

I shall be there, I shall help those in need, I will walk the path...


I'm sorry I didn't post earlier this week, I'll have to be more on top of that. I'll catch you later Blog!