No rest for the wicked...

Hey Blog,


So... it's been pretty crazy the past several weeks. All kinds of things have been happening, and it seems like my bad luck has been building and building as time is passing. I haven't really had a chance to stand up before finding myself crawling on the floor again. Times are rough, but I'm getting by the best a man can in times of trouble.

Well, lets get down to business... so far, my car has broken down the day before a freakin' midterm. Had a bit of an emergency some days before. This weekend has been a crazy one, one of ups and downs. This entire week has been somewhat like this, but nothing like the weekend itself.

So, lets get down to the smaller stuff now. My car broke down last night while I was hitting the 580 to 880 south bound junction. I found myself unable to shift gears as my gear box seemed to become a huge hole in my car. So, I pulled off the freeway and turned onto Broadway where I called my dad. I got a hold of AAA and got a tow back home. Unfortunately... I have a midterm today, and now I'm sitting here a little stressed out that I might not be able to get a reschedule. From what I hear, my professor is very sick (in which I'm praying for his health).

I really don't have much of a choice in this matter involving my car. So I hope that there's a possibility of me being able to take the midterm on a later date. Otherwise... I'm pretty damned screwed. My luck has been really poor lately, and I hope it'll pick up soon.

Beautiful Person...

Well, I've finally gotten some closure it seems. The hope in which I was clinging too foolishly was finally given way to a more harsher reality... but it has left me with higher level of promise. I know, deep in my heart, that my beautiful person didn't mean for what happened to happen. I forgive them from the bottom of my heart for what happened.

My beautiful person was missing something... something very important. Something that I hope they know they need to fill that missing area before they can truly give themselves to someone. This missing piece, is why it seemed in the long run that the passion was not as mutual. I hope, and I pray that my beautiful person will refill this something and be able to love themselves more. Not be as critical about themselves, and truly be themselves, not what others might look upon them. They're a beautiful person, inside and out, and I truly love that about them.

I really hope that my beautiful person will find themselves, and find happiness. But most of all, I hope that they'll be able to rebuild what they had been missing, so that they can truly give everything to someone, and not be in fear that there might be something else. When one is not missing pieces, they can truly make a leap of faith for another person. But till they are complete, and have found as much as there is to know about someone that they can find on their own, they will not be able to make that jump.

I'll truly miss my beautiful person, and I hope I can still have them in my life... but time will truly tell from here.

Take it easy Blog... lets hope things start looking up...